I went out tonight... and went to some kids room... and I knew I was in his room but I didn't really feel like I was there in his room. if you know what I mean. a sort of emptiness and disconnection from people. they'll forget about me in two days... it's like I exist but it's meaningless.  I'm moving around, meeting people... but at the same time I'm not really there. It wouldn't matter if I was there or not. my existence makes no different. it's the weirdest sensation.. when I get that sensation. it's almost like a disassociation.  a disassociation from the world. my world.